The Oppression Diaries

9:50AM   A DH STOOD NEAR THE DOOR OF THE KITCHEN AS I WAS PREPARING MY BREAKFAST, THEN SUCKED ALOUD AND SPAT. HE DID NOT DO IT AGAIN AFTER I TURNED THE RECORDER ON. 5:42PM   BASKETBALL DHS STARTED CATCALLS ABOUT AN HOUR AGO.  When I started posting one DH MOCKED ALOUD SAYING "NONE". I THEN STARTED HAVING PROBLEMS POSTING AND UPLOADING RECORDED FILES.  When I got to finally upload some and after turning the TV OFF, THE DHS STARTED CLAPPING FEIGNING APPROVAL. Something STARTED UP MY ASS.  I SHOUTED OUT PISSED AND THE DHS SHOUTED BACK. My right shoulder and side of my neck started to HURT AFTERWARDS. ****  YESTERDAY THEY EVEN BROUGHT IN A STEEL LATHING SAW TO BUST MY EARS OFF.  IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY.

8AM   BASKETBALL DHS start their routine of slamming and catcalls. As I start recording all the NOISE HARASSMENT ROUTINE GOING ON AROUND ME, MY LOWER BACK STARTS TO HURT AGAIN. 2pm  (around)  Pictures I took all DISAPPEARED FROM MY MOBILE.  Majority of those pictures relate to a TV NETWORK.  One of the pics was A BITCH IN BLACK WITH THE HUNGER GAMES LOGO ON HER SHIRT WITH A KID WEARING A TEE with PE printed at the back. ****  Up to now, these NIGGERS ARE UNDER THE ILLUSION THAT THEIR SECRET BS IS JUSTIFIABLE AND I AM PART OF THEIR "GAMING" niggers.  They JUST LOVE DRAMATICS AT MY EXPENSE USUALLY. 3:30pm  I just got a SECURE CONNECTION COULD NOT BE ESTABLISHED message. 3:49pm   Kids WITH A DH HAD STARTED THEIR BATTLE-PLAY "SSHHH" NOISE AGAIN NEAR OUR WINDOW. 7pm  Now I'm having SERVER PROBLEMS AS I START POSTING MY RECORDINGS.

8:17AM   As soon as I woke up (an hour before) A BITCH HAD ALREADY STARTED CACKLING OUTSIDE.  THEN I STARTED TO SNEEZE UNCONTROLLABLY AND HAVE A CLOGGED NOSE. THE BITCHES CONTINUED TO CACKLE EACH TIME I DO SOMETHING. 7pm  As soon as my mother arrived I STARTED TO SENSE A PANICK ATTACK AND ULCER LIKE PAIN IN MY STOMACH.  As the PAIN ESCALATED SHE SUDDENLY STARTED SHOUTING AT ME FOR NO GODDAM REASON. 8.33pm   STILL FEELING VERY PISSED.  MANY THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD ABOUT BEING BETRAYED OR SOLD OUT BY MY OWN MOTHER OR FAMILY. 11:45PM   A CHUCKLING DH SAID ALOUD "BYE" AS HE PASSED BY BELOW OUR WINDOW.  WHEN I TURNED THE RECORDER ON, NO ONE SPOKE ANYMORE.

1:40PM   FEELING DULL PAIN AT THE TOP OF MY HEAD, SPECIALLY WHEN I TRY TO CHECK ALL RECORDINGS TAKEN YESTERDAY OF THE NIGGER GANGSTALKERS FOLLOWING ME AROUND and MAKING LOTS OF TALK AND GESTURES TO ME WHILE I WAS AT THE MALL AND WHILE DINING WITH MY SISTER. Feeling dizzy and have sore shoulders and back of my neck. Also somewhat exhausted. The pain on my head now is SPREADING TO MY EYES AND FOREHEAD. Last night when I got home, THERE WAS SO MUCH PAIN ON MY LOWER BACK. 4:12PM   DHS BASKETBALL CATCALLS HAD STARTED AGAIN AS I START CHECKING ON THE RECORDINGS AND LOOKING FOR AN EDITING TOOL (WHICH I OVERLOOKED THE OTHER DAY).  PALPITATIONS AND PAIN IN MY CHEST HAD ALSO STARTED. 7PM   As I was trying to figure out, AFTER SEEMINGLY HAVING A MENTAL BLOCK AGAIN (EYES CLOUDY AND FEELING HEAVY) the chronological order of events yesterday to organize my posts, A DH PASSED BY BELOW OUR WINDOW AND SAID "COZ ALREADY OLD". As I wrote this down A GROUP OF DHS STARTED SHOUT...

4:50PM   STARTED TO GAG AND COUGH UNCONTROLLABLY FOR NO REASON AT ALL. 9:14PM   SUDDENLY STARTED FEELING very tired and drowsy.  Could BARELY THINK.  Happening for more than an hour now.

8:20AM   A DH KID SAID WHILE GIGGLING NEAR OUR WINDOW "GET A BATH", AS I CONTINUED LAYING DOWN A FEW MINUTES AFTER I WOKE UP. ***  EARLY THIS MORNING, I WAS AWAKENED TWICE (AROUND 4 or 5AM) BY BITCHES TALKING ALOUD.  THAT WAS AFTER I SLEPT AT 2AM. 1:05PM   DHS at the parking area HAD STARTED SHOUTING BRIEFLY AFTER EACH REMARK ON TV.  SHARP DULL SENSATION AND SORENESS HAD STARTED ON MY CHEST AS WELL.  When I TURNED ON MY RECORDER, THE DHS STOPPED. ****  But I still have to put the TV on mute before I could start recording.

2PM   Feeling PALPITATIONS and TIGHTENING IN THE CHEST AGAIN.  THE BASKETBALL DHS HAD STARTED THEIR USUAL BULLYING SHOUTS AND HOOTS. Skin around my forehead START TO ITCH UNCONTROLLABLY. 5:50PM   STARTING TO FEEL VERY HEAVY AGAIN and the sensation AS IF THE WALLS ARE CLOSING AROUND ME.

1:14PM   PALPITATIONS AND TREMOR LIKE IRRITATION ON MY CHEST STARTING AGAIN, AS TEENAGERS AND KIDS PLAY AND SHOUT IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW. I start to FEEL IRRITATED. 4:17PM   As I started to say "No deal forever speciall with Filipinos" THE MALE KID OUTSIDE PLAYING LAUGHED NON- STOP THEN SAID ALOUD "COZ YOU'RE SMALL", THEN CONTINUED ON LAUGHING. THE KID SUDDENLY STOPPED LAUGHING AS I WROTE THIS. THE KIDS ALSO LOVE TO SAY "JUST PRACTICE" EVEN WITH THE GROUP OF GIRLS EARLIER.

12AM   While dosing off A DH STARTED SNEEZING ALOUD.  MY EYELIDS TWITCHED AT EACH NOISE. 6:44PM   HEAD VERY HEAVY AND CONFUSED.  COULD NOT SEEM TO FOCUS ANYTHING AND VERY DISTRACTED. ****  HAD TO SHOUT AT THE GODDAM BASKETBALL DHS EARLIER.  LEFT CHEST WON'T STOP HURTING (SHARP STABBING PAIN).

11:52AM  GETTING A LOT OF NAGGING THOUGHTS AND IDEAS IN MY HEAD.  ARGUMENTS ABOUT SOMEONE WANTING TO TALK TO ME AND CHANGING THE VERDICT ABOUT GETTING TERMINATED FROM MY JOB. There's AN EXTREMELY NAGGING FEELING THAT'S BEARING DOWN ON ME AND CAUSING ME TO GET BEDRIDDEN.  IT'S FORCING ME TO CHANGE SOMETHING THAT I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND AT ALL As a result, I COULD NOT EAT OR PREPARE MY MEAL OR EVEN TAKE A BATH.  I COULD NOT DO ANYTHING AT ALL.  When I started talking out loud angrily, A LOUD MOUTH BITCH SAID "OK WE'RE LEAVING".  A FAG ALSO STARTED TO SNICKER (EARLIER) AS I WAS "FORCED" TO LIE DOWN. ****  This is COMES AS A VERY STRANGE EXPERIENCE, LIKE A SUDDEN WEIRD FLUKE, WHEN I WAS FEELING QUITE CALM and CLEAR-HEADED THIS MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP.  NOW I AM FEELING SO STRESSED OUT AS IF I AM GETTING NAGGED TO DEATH. THERE'S ALSO A GODDAM DH WHO HAD BEEN LAUGHING SOFTLY OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW SINCE MORNING. 12:56PM  THOUGHTS ABOUT SOMEONE ...

12:49AM   EXHAUSTING PALPITATIONS.  COULD NOT SLEEP OR THINK.  Some bitch SLAMMED A CAR DOOR AS I WROTE THIS. 4:15PM   THE BASKETBALL DHS HAD STARTED WITH THEIR CATCALLS AGAIN. 4:39PM   THE DHS HAD NOW RESORTED TO CURSING ALOUD.

3:40PM   Thought came to me as to why I am having so much trouble in getting my clearance signed, and apparently it had something to do with the operations staff or the HR staff who seem to "claim and accuse" me of ASKING AND VERIFYING A LOT OF INFORMATION when I was getting terminated ERGO AN INDICATION THAT I AM UNWILLING TO LEAVE. ****  BUT I WAS STILL LET GO NONETHELESS, AND FOR WHICH I AM NOW BEING WRONGLY ACCUSED OF AGAIN as HAVING BROUGHT IT UPON MYSELF.  I could never seem to do anything right for WHICHEVER SIDE. 4:47PM   THE BASKETBALL DHS (FAKE PLAY) RANDOM SHOUTING HAD STARTED AGAIN. 8:16PM   AS SOON AS I CHECKED ON MY OUTSTANDING BILL FOR MY INTERNET ACCT, A MOTORBIKE PARKED BELOW OUR WINDOW AND GUNNED IT'S MOTOR.

9:36AM   EXCRUCIATING PAIN ON MY LOWER ABDOMEN CONTINUED.

8:54AM   STILL HAVING LOWER ABDOMINAL CRAMPS FOR SOME REASON and cold feet and legs. 5:42PM   FEELING DISORIENTED WITH SOME THOUGHTS OF INSECURITY and PANIC (WHAT AM I GOING TO DO).  A DH AT THE BASKETBALL AREA SUDDENLY SHOUTED AS I TRIED TO CLEAR MY HEAD AND THINK. 7:50PM   WHILE PREPARING A MEAL, DHS AT THE BASKETBALL OR PARKING DO NON-STOP CATCALLS.  MY HEAD STARTED TO FEEL DISORIENTED AND HEAVY AGAIN WITH SOME KIND OF NOISE LIKE STATIC OR INTERFERENCE IN MY HEAD, AS IF THE NOISE OF THE DHS ARE BEING MAGNIFIED. AS I STARTED WRITING THIS DOWN (and recording) THE DHS QUIETED DOWN AND RESORTED TO CACKLING AT RANDOM. 8:06PM   WHEN I TURNED THE RECORDER OFF THE DHS CHATTER BELOW GOT LOUDER AGAIN.  With DHS SLAMMING AT A WOODEN BOARD AS I WRITE THIS DOWN. 9:11PM   AS I SAT DOWN TO EAT THE DHS SHOUTED. 10:37PM   UPLOADING REALTIME RECORDED FILES ON NOISE HARASSMENT HAS BECOME VERY VERY SLOW SUDDENLY.  A DH DOWNSTAIRS CACKLED...

4AM   (APPROX) NOISY VEHICLE WITH EQUALLY NOISY FHS CAME INTO THE PARKING AREA.  ONE OLD SOUNDING DH PARTICULARLY KEPT SAYING SOMETHING TOTALLY UNRELATED TO WHAT THEY'RE DOING.  SOMEONE EVENTUALLY SAID "HOW LONG BEFORE WE COULD MAKE IT GO DOWN"  AND THE OTHER SAID "2 DAYS ONLY".  THE OLDER ONE ARGUED "NO. TWO WEEKS" THEN BLEW HIS NOSE.  JUST THEN MY NOSE ALSO STARTED TO ITCH, RUNNY THEN SNEEZE UNCONTROLLABLY. WHEN I STARTED RECORDING AND TAKING PICTURES THEIR CONVERSATIONS SUDDENLY BECAME VAGUE.  The vehicle left after a few minutes but STOPPED SHORT STILL INSIDE THE PARKING AREA THEN KILLED IT'S MOTOR. 5:25PM   FEELING VERY COLD.

12:16AM   THE SORE TIGHT FEELING IN MY CHEST CONTINUED EVEN AFTER I MOUTHED OUT "I WILL NEVER MARRY YOU WHOEVER THE FUCK YOU ARE, EVEN IF YOU ARE BACKED BY THE BRITS".  AS I PREPARED FOR BED, THE VEHICLE WITH A NOISY RATTLING MOTOR ARRIVED.  THEN A DH SAID ALOUD "WHY IS THAT". 12:54AM   While trying to get to sleep, A DH SUDDENLY COURSELY SPAT ALOUD JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW.  MY EYELIDS TWITCHED AT THE SOUND. 6:40AM   WITH MY EYES STILL CLOSED, A DH SNEEZED-COUGHED ALOUD OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW.  I STARTED TO FEEL MY NOSE AND THROAT ITCH. **** Woke up with my tonsils feeling a bit sore already for some reason. 7:58AM   While talking to my sister by SMS re problems I seem to be having with my mother, A BITCH UPSTAIRS STARTED DOING BABY TALK EXAGGERATEDLY AND REAL LOUD, EXCLAIMING "HIYA" and with a TAUNTING "YOU'RE REAL STUBBORN".  A DH KID JOINED HER AS I CONTINUED WRITING THIS DOWN. 8:35AM   I seem to be having problems putting so...

7:58AM   After I woke up and laid down again (as I wait for bath water to heat up)  SOMETHING MADE ME SNEEZE UNCONTROLLABLY, CLOGGING my nose AND MAKING IT ITCHY AND RUNNY. ***  THERE WAS also THAT EXCRUCIATING PAIN AT MY LOWER BACK making it hard for me to turn when I am lying down.  IT HAS BEEN LIKE THAT FOR MORE THAN A WEEK NOW. 9:48AM   While having breakfast, DHS (CLEANING STAFF) TALK ALOUD "DOUBLE PAY".  When I mouthed out "SO PAY ME NOW. 1 MILLION PESOS FIRST DOWNPAYMENT AND THERE'S STILL NO DEAL FOREVER," ANOTHER DH RETORTED "COZ YOU EAT TOO MUCH". 9:57AM   AS I CHECKED ON ONE OF THE FEATURES OF THIS BLOG APP TRYING TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING, I KEPT GETTING A MESSAGE "A SECURE CONNECTION COULD NOT BE ESTABLISHED" AND A LOUD MOUTH BITCH CACKLED just outside our window (A UNIT NEARBY WITH AN OPEN WINDOW). 10:09AM   AFTER I WROTE THIS DOWN, ALMOST IMMEDIATELY MY MOTHER STARTS ACTING ERRATICALLY AGAIN (AND IRRITATED).  A LOUD MOUTH ...

2PM   FEELING CHILLY.  A CONSTANT CHATTER AND SNICKERING CAN BE HEARD BY GROUPS OF NIGGERS SCATTERED AROUND.  HOOTING CAN ALSO BE HEARD (FOR SOME REASON). ****  While watching and even after I turned the TV off NO SUCH OCCURENCES HAPPENED. IT WAS ONLY SOME  MINUTES AFTER A DH STARTED TALKING ALOUD, JOINED BY A BITCH AND A KID, WHO'S PROBABLY DOING MOST OF THE HOOTING RIGHT NOW AS I WRITE THIS. 2:32PM   AS I STARTED RE-EVALUATING (AGAIN) by speaking to myself WHETHER I OUGHT TO GO AND HAVE MY CLEARANCE PROCESSED NOW (OR LATER), A DH KID CAME NEAR OUR WINDOW AND HOOTED INCESSANTLY.  The kid hooted again for some reason as I looked on my mobile.  A MOTORBIKE WENT PAST BELOW NOISILY.  OTHER KIDS STARTED SHRIEKING. 4:25PM   A BITCH STARTED CHATTING EXCITEDLY NEAR OUR WINDOW.  When I mouthed "THERE'S NO DEAL FOREVER" HER CHATTER GOT LOUDER WHICH TURNED INTO A LOUD CACKLE. ****  This happened (for no apparent reason) right aft...

9AM   AWAKENED BY DHS WHO HAD GATHERED AT THE BASKETBALL AREA AGAIN CHATTERING AND SHOUTING ALOUD.  A DH KID SAID ALOUD "I AM HERE" OVER AND OVER AGAIN. ***  I noticed a BLACK CAR PARKED IN FRONT AS I PASSED BY THE WINDOW. 9:19AM   LOWER BACK STARTS TO HURT. 9:28AM   AS I WAS WASHING IN THE KITCHEN, SOMEONE STOOD BY THE KITCHEN DOOR AND JIGGLED A BUNCH OF KEYS.  I started to FEEL VERY PISSED AND IRRITATED. 9:57PM   THIS BLOG APP SUDDENLY SHIFTED AND I LOST THE PICTURES I HAD UPLOADED OF A BLACK CAR LEAVING AS SOON AS I TOOK IT'S PICTURE. 11:03AM   A BLACK CAR CAME BACK AND PARKED IN THE SAME AREA.  NOT SURE IF ITS THE SAME ONE. 3:59PM   TOILET VERY CLOGGED AGAIN.  DIRT GETTING PUMPED BACK UP IT SEEMS. 4:50PM   DHS AT BASKETBALL AREA START NOISE AGAIN. 5:12PM   FEELING CHEST TIGHTENING.  STIFFNESS IN NECK AND SHOULDERS. 8:28PM   STARTING TO FEEL A CHILL AND INDIGESTION FOLLOWED BY SOMEONE DRAGGING...

1:40AM   As I was trying to finish washing all utensils, A DH SHOUTED COARSELY DIRECTLY BELOW OR NEAR THE KITCHEN. 1:52AM   MUSCLE PAIN AND STIFFENING CONTINUES ON MY LEFT CHEST RUNNING TOWARDS THE CENTER. 7:30AM   Woke up NOT FEELING ANY CHILL OR FEELINGS OF APPREHENSION for the first time since I got fired. 8:30AM   (approx)  Was going down to throw trash.  The elevator opened WITH A DH INSIDE  WEARING A GREY JACKET AND ORANGE CAP CARRYING TWO EMPTY BOTTLES OF IDENTICAL APPEARANCE. 9:46AM   DHS GROUP AT BASKETBALL AREA STARTED SHOUTING AS I READ MORE ABOUT GANG-STALKING. 10AM   A LOUD MOUTH BITCH PASSED NEAR THE WINDOW SAYING "COULD BE (OR WAS THAT YOUR SPOUSE". 2:30AM   While lying down THOUGHTS SEEM TO BE ARGUING as to where I am supposed to go AND EXASPERATING ME.  A FAG SOMEWHERE OUTSIDE CACKLED.  When I wrote this a MOTORBIKE STARTED UP AND LEFT. 4:07PM   While eating and watching TV, DHS AT BASKETBALL...

2:27AM   FRIDGE DOING A VERY LOUD DRONING NOISE FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR NOW.  WHEN I TURNED IT OFF, ANOTHER LOW DRONING SOUND CAN STILL BE HEARD BUT LESS  AUDIBLE.  SEEMS TO BE VIBRATING THROUGHOUT MY ROOM. 7:34AM   WOKE UP SUDDENLY WITH A FEELING THAT I DID SOMETHING WRONG AGAIN or of IMPENDING DOOM. ***  ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS EVERSINCE I GOT TERMINATED, WITH CONSTANT "THREATS" IN MY HEAD THAT MY FAMILY WOULD KNOW ABOUT IT, AND THAT I AM NOT DOING ENOUGH OR ANYTHING ABOUT IT LIKE I AM SUPPOSED TO (AS IF I AM RESPONSIBLE FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED TO ME). 8:57AM   As I was composing my resignation letter, A LOUD MOUTH (LESBIAN SOUNDING) BITCH SAID QUIETLY JUST ABOVE MY WINDOW OUTSIDE "TRYING TO ESCAPE".  AS I WROTE THIS A DH CACKLED, A BITCH SNEEZED OVER AND OVER, and another DH SHOUTED "HOY" FROM THE SAME DIRECTION. This was further followed by A BITCH SAYING SOMETHING INAUDIBLE ALOUD WHICH SOUNDED MORE LIKE A THREAT.  A GROUP OF DHS...

6:19AM   Suddenly woke up with someone saying aloud near our window "I WILL JUMP OFF FROM HERE FOR 10,000 PESOS".  I then started to FEEL SOMETHING COLD ON MY BACK AND CHEST AS I LAY DOWN WITH A NAGGING BUT VAGUE THOUGHT THAT I GOTTA DO SOMETHING NOW (FINISH MY RESIGNATION CLEARANCE, ETC). ***  When I texted my immediate supervisor yesterday for assistance on my clearance, he failed to respond for some reason. 9AM   MY MOTHER STARTS REACTING ANGRILY AS I LISTEN TO GANG-STALKING VIDEOS ONLINE, KEPT GOING OUTSIDE FOR NO APPARENT REASON. 9:10AM   DHS (CLEANING STAFF) FOLLOWED BY A GROUP OF KIDS START MAKING NOISES (WATER TAP TURNED TO FULL BLAST) AND SHOUTING OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW. 9:24AM   DHS OUTSIDE SHOUT LOUDER BY GOING NEAR MY WINDOW SAYING "IT STINKS". 10:52AM   SAT DOWN AS I STARTED TO FEEL SUDDENLY TIRED AND WEAK.  A DH IMMEDIATELY PASSED JUST BELOW MY WINDOW AND SANG ALOUD. 12:16AM   STEEL LATHING NOISE HAD STARTED FOLLOWED BY ...

12:44PM   KID STARTS SHRIEKING AS I START WRITING certain harassment AFTERTHOUGHTS, with the sensation provoking me to feel anger again. 1:40PM   OUR TOILET IS CLOGGED AGAIN.  AS IF SOMEONE IS PUSHING BACK UP WHAT WE ARE TRYING TO FLUSH DOWN. 5PM  (or earlier)  As I read online on how to stop gang-stalking, DHS GATHER AT THE BASKETBALL AREA SHOUTING DRAMATICALLY AND IN A CHALLENGING MANNER.  Another DH said aloud just below our window "NOT COMING ANYMORE ISN'T IT", AS A BIKE RIDER DH PASSED BY. 5:13PM   LOUD MOUTH BITCHES (one sounding like the fat whore) SOMEWHERE ABOVE MY WINDOW CHATTER AND TALK (mixed with provincial dialect) LOUD ENOUGH FOR ME TO HEAR.  One suddenly exclaimed "OH A MOUSE" AS I STARTED WRITING THIS. 5:19PM  ONE DH SUDDENLY SHOUTED AND I FELT A DULL IRRITATING SENSATION SLAP MY CHEST.  THE DH CLAPPED AND SHOUTED APPROVINGLY. 6:10PM   I came across a statement that says "Perps are kpt on a very short leas...

01/07/2015   12PM *** 12/03/2014   The reports submitted by nigger eyewitnesses against me ONLY TOOK LESS THAN 5 HOURS TO GET PROCESSED AND APPROVED by the HR.  Whereas mine took more than 2 weeks and STILL NO RESOLUTION, AS COMPARED TO THE NIGGERS WHO GOT ME EASILY SUSPENDED WITHIN THE DAY.  It turned out that THE THREE INCIDENTS THAT THEY HAVE FOUND ME CULPABLE WERE THOSE FILED BY LOCAL DHS AND TWO LOCAL BITCHES IN CAHOOTS WITH A NIGGER (LITERALLY) FOREIGNER. 12:19PM   AS I WRITE THIS I START TO FEEL A COLD MALICE ON MY CHEST (WITH THAT SEXUAL SENSATION UP MY ASS).  I START TO FEEL ANGER WELLING UP FOLLOWED BY FEELINGS OF WEAKNESS. These thoughts came up (for some reason), AFTER A NEWS RE SHELL OIL COMPANY DEALS WITH A NIGERIA OIL SPILLL.

12:11AM   STILL COULD NOT SLEEP.  MANY THOUGHTS CROWDING IN.  MY NOSE KEPT GETTING MORE CLOGGED AND STILL BEING FORCED TO SNEEZE BY MAKING IT VERY ITCHY MAKING IT RUNNY ONLY. 12:44AM   NOSE STILL VERY CLOGGED COULD BARELY BREATHE.  COULD NOT GET ANY SLEEP AT ALL DUE TO NUMEROUS THOUGHTS. 1:15AM   REPETITIVE THOUGHTS AGAIN ABOUT HSBC WILL CALL ME TODAY.  I STILL COULD NOT GET ANY SLEEP.  ALSO GETTING SAME MESSAGE NOT ESTABLISHING A SECURE CONNECTION. 7:56AM   THOUGHT FIRST THING WHEN I WOKE UP "WE'RE GETTING MARRIED".  Then followed by "THEY'RE (hsbc) GOING TO CALL YOU TODAY" over and over again FOLLOWEDBY TWITCHES TO MY LEFT LEG. 8:25PM   AS THOUGHTS COME TO MIND over and over, and I am forced to say it, A BITCH SOMEWHERE BELOW AND UPSTAIRS HOOTS over and over again, OR SAYS "NO".  As I write this, a car starts up and pulls out.  The sound of tapping glass plate can be heard. 12:39PM   DULL PAIN ON MY LEFT C...

7AM   Suddenly woke up with many questions and doubts in my head. 8:55AM   AS I SAT NEAR OUR WINDOW TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO, AND NOT FEELING TOO GOOD and a BOMBARDMENT OF QUESTIONS IN MY HEAD, A DH PASSED BY BELOW CACKLING.  I felt pissed for some reason. ****   I keep getting the message "A SECURE CONNECTION COULD NOT BE ESTABLISHED" on my mobile.  RIGHT AFTER I WROTE THIS, A DH NEXT DOOR SAID "IT'S YOUR FAULT."  THEN PRETENDED TO SUSH A KID BEFORE GOING IN. 9:23AM   MORE LOUD TALK JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW WITH PHRASES LIKE "LAST NIGHT", "BATANGAS" AND "ARRIVED EARLY", ETC. 9:41AM   HAVING A LOT OF CONFUSING AND NAGGING THOUGHTS AGAIN ABOUT WORKING AT A NON-GOVERNMENT ORGANIZATION AS A VOLUNTEER.  There are THREATENING THOUGHTS and doubts THAT WHAT HAPPENED BEFORE IS HAPPENING AGAIN (how I got forced out of my job before), THAT I CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT, THAT MOST COMPANIES WANT ME OUT OF HERE AND WOULD ONLY HIRE M...

10:30AM   LOUD MOUTH BITCH START LAUGH-TALK DOWNSTAIRS. 10:40AM   STUBBED MY TOES FOR SOME REASON (SEEMINGLY SPACING OUT AGAIN WITHOUT KNOWING IT). 1:54PM   While 'forced' to talk to myself, evaluating what I should be doing, A BITCH PASSED NEAR OUR WINDOW AND SAID "WHERE DO YOU THINK YOU'RE GOING.  YOU HAVE A DEBT".  Starting to FEEL REALLY PISSED AS I WRITE THIS DOWN. 3PM   DHS AT BASKETBALL AREA HOOTING AT WHATEVER IT IS I AM DOING OR REACTING TO OR CONVERSING WITH. 4:40PM   BASKETBALL DHS CONTINUE WITH THEIR HOOTING AND CATCALLS. 5PM   WHEN I WAS 'URGED' TO SAY QUIETLY TO MYSELF THAT THERE'S NO DEAL WITH FILIPINOS (OR THEIR ASSOCIATES);  NO ONE WOULD WANT TO MAKE DEALS WITH ANY OF THEM;  and THE FAGS (at the office) WHO TESTIFIED AGAINST ME ARE DEAD, THE BASKETBALL DHS HOOTED AND DID CATCALLS. Kids somewhere upstairs now started to shout aloud "HEY HANDSOME" with a bitch as I write this, THEN CALLING OUT SOME DH'S NAME. ...

7:40AM   As I was thinking (and talking to myself) about what to do now that I do not have a job, A BITCH PASSED BY JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW AND SAID "YOU REALLY LIKE GETTING SCOLDED DON'T YOU".  As I wrote this, OTHER KIDS CAME OUT AND STARTED PLAYING AND DRIBBLING A BALL NOSILY NEARBY. 3:40PM   A DH PASSES BELOW OUR WINDOW SHOUTING "STINK", AS I READ ABOUT ELECTROMAGNETIC TORTURE ON THE NET. 4PM   PAIN AND SORENESS ON THE CHEST START AGAIN AS IT DID EARLY THIS MORNING WHILE SURFING THE NET. 4:10PM   A DH PASSED BY SAYING SOMETHING THEN ALOUD "THE SPOUSE", as I read an article (new world war) with the author's picture. 5PM   A GROUP COMES UP THE HALLWAY CHATTERING and GIGGLING ALOUD. 5:27PM   A MOTORBIKE IS BEING SWITCHED (OR REVVED) ON AND OFF JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW (AS IF THE BIKE IS BEING ROCKED BACK AND FORTH). 5:36PM   WHEN I TRIED LOOKING UP PSYCHOLOGICAL COERCION, F.A.C.T.net came up with the statements "How to Convert to Islam...

7:53AM   WOKE UP WITH A BAD FEELING (ALMOST LIKE APPREHENSION). 8:30AM   AS I CAME ACROSS A LOCAL NEWS COMMENTARY (RELIGIOUS BUSINESS OR LIFE CONSULTANT) ON TV, A DH PASSED BY OUTSIDE OUR DOOR SINGING. 9AM   A SMALL ARGUMENT WITH MY MOTHER AND SISTER, A BITCH CACKLED SOMEWHERE NEARBY. ****  ALL THROUGHOUT, I WAS FEELING IRRITATED and there was some PAIN ON MY CHEST, EVEN AS I JUST FLIPPED THE CHANNELS ON TV. 9:55AM   STARTING TO FEEL OVERLY PISSED ABOUT A SMALL MATTER - MY LAUNDRY NOT GETTING DELIVERED ON TIME BUT STILL GETTING CHARGED FOR IT. 10:38AM   FEELINGS OF REMORSE OR PAIN IN MY CHEST, WITH THOUGHTS OF CERTAIN PEOPLE THAT I WAS "SUPPOSED" TO APPROACH FOR HELP "AS PLANNED" BUT WHICH DID NOT MATERIALIZE, AND SEEMINGLY BEING BLAMED (AND NAGGED INTO MY HEAD AGAIN) ON ME LIKE ALWAYS. 10:53AM   LOUD MOUTH BITCH WITH BABBLING KID AT THE HALLWAY AGAIN JUST OUTSIDE OUR DOOR.  KID SEEMS TO BABBLE WHEN I AM "URGED" TO TALK TO MYSELF. 11...