HARASSMENT BY NIGGERS 01/05/2015
7AM Suddenly woke up with many questions and doubts in my head.
8:55AM AS I SAT NEAR OUR WINDOW TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO, AND NOT FEELING TOO GOOD and a BOMBARDMENT OF QUESTIONS IN MY HEAD, A DH PASSED BY BELOW CACKLING. I felt pissed for some reason.
**** I keep getting the message "A SECURE CONNECTION COULD NOT BE ESTABLISHED" on my mobile. RIGHT AFTER I WROTE THIS, A DH NEXT DOOR SAID "IT'S YOUR FAULT." THEN PRETENDED TO SUSH A KID BEFORE GOING IN.
9:23AM MORE LOUD TALK JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW WITH PHRASES LIKE "LAST NIGHT", "BATANGAS" AND "ARRIVED EARLY", ETC.
9:41AM HAVING A LOT OF CONFUSING AND NAGGING THOUGHTS AGAIN ABOUT WORKING AT A NON-GOVERNMENT ORGANIZATION AS A VOLUNTEER. There are THREATENING THOUGHTS and doubts THAT WHAT HAPPENED BEFORE IS HAPPENING AGAIN (how I got forced out of my job before), THAT I CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT, THAT MOST COMPANIES WANT ME OUT OF HERE AND WOULD ONLY HIRE ME TO TRAFFICK ME TO OTHER MEN, AND THAT EVERYTHING IS JUST GOING TO BE THE SAME.
Now I'm getting thoughts that if IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET A JOB IF I CONTINUE TO HAVE THESE THOUGHTS, OR I WILL JUST BE SENT BACK TO THE MENTAL HOSPITAL.
10AM SOMEONE STARTED TO CLUCK HIS/HER TONGUE JUST OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW.
10:25AM ANOTHER NAGGING THOUGHT NOW IS THAT I WAS NOT REALLY TERMINATED (YET) AND THEY'RE JUST TRYING TO MAKE ME ASK FOR HELP FROM CERTAIN COLLEAGUES TO TESTIFY OR DEFEND ME, SO AS TO BUILD MY TRUST IN THEM.
INSPITE OF THE FACT THAT I KEPT GETTING NEGATIVE TWITCHES ON MY LEFT LEG AND UNSTOPPABLE PAINFUL YAWNS WHEN I WAS STILL WITH THESE COLLEAGUES.
10:45AM I FEEL SLIGHTLY PISSED WHEN I SEE BLACK PEOPLE OR AFRICANS ON TV.
11:07AM I AM NOW GETTING THOUGHTS THAT IT'S UP TO ME.
*** I HAVE NO GODDAM IDEA WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT.
11:17AM WHILE WATCHING TV, A TAGLINE CAME UP "IT'LL JUST BE FLOATING". THERE WAS A TAP ABOVE THAT FOLLOWED, and I started FEELING PISSED, HEAVY OR DOWN HEARTED AGAIN.
11:43AM A CLICKING SOUND CAN BE HEARD JUST OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW. A thought came to mind that THE NIGGERS WANT ANOTHER SHOWDOWN perhaps, TO FORCE ME TO RUN AFTER OR COOPERATE TO RUN AFTER OR LOOK FOR SOME GODDAM NIGGER DH.
1:52PM AS SOON AS I FINISHED WASHING MY CLOTHES, A LOUD MOUTH PROVINCIAL SOUNDING BITCH STARTED TO SCOLD A SHRIEKING KID.
**** While doing my laundry, STARTED TO HAVE THOUGHTS THAT THE NIGGERS SURROUNDING ME AT HOME MADE A DEAL WITH THE NIGGER SECURITY GUARDS AND OTHERS AT THE OFFICE TO FORCE ME OUT OF MY JOB. Then another flashback on what I saw "WE DO (or make) WHAT YOU IMAGINE" at the back of a car, WITH A CORRESPONDING ANGRY THOUGHT AS TO WHY THEY COULD NOT DO TO THE NIGGERS WHAT I IMAGINED ABOUT NOT HARASSING ME ANYMORE (AND SCREWING MY JOB AGAIN).
2PM A GROUP STARTS GLEEFUL CHATTER followed by a low toned BITCH STARTS TALKING ALOUD "TH EY'RE STILL HERE.. AT THE THEATRE."
3:58PM AS I PLACED SOME ITEMS (which I remember having already put away) NEAR THE WINDOW, A GREY CAR ARRIVED AT THE PARKING AREA BELOW. SOMEONE STARTED
OPENING AND CLOSING THE CAR DOOR LOUDLY SEVERAL TIMES AS I WROTE THIS.
4:54PM AS I SURFED THE NET ABOUT VOLUNTEER JOBS, DHS AT THE BASKETBALL AREA START HOOTING. When I went to check on a certain word from an online dictionary
A WORD "FALLIBLE" OPENED UP ON THE SCREEN.
5:10PM AS I GOT TO PAGE ONLINE and saw a wedding picture of A FOREIGN DH AND A BITCH, I FELT A SHARP PAIN ON MY CHEST (INDUCED BY THE NIGGER RADAR DEVICE AGAIN). A BITCH FROM OUTSIDE THE WINDOW SHOUTED A NAME SIMILAR TO MINE.
8:57PM RANDOM ERRATIC THOUGHTS START AGAIN IN MY HEAD ABOUT SOME FACELESS GUY AND ACCUSATIONS ON MY PERSONALITY AND SUPPOSED WEAKNESSES, FOLLOWED BY A TIGHTENING PAINFUL FEELING ON MY CHEST, AS IF FORCING ME TO CRY FOR NO GODDAM REASON.
9:46PM AN OLD BITCH COUGHED NEARBY AND I ALSO FELT AN ITCH IN MY THROAT MAKING ME COUGH.
10:07PM A BABY STARTS CRYING AND A FEW SECONDS LATER I FEEL SAME TIGHTENING ON MY CHEST. AS I WRITE THIS A KID SAID NEARBY "PAPA" IN A PLEADING MANNER. A SCREAMING WAILING CAT FOLLOWS SUIT. I then HEAR THE CONSTANT RAPID TAPPING AND CLINKING OF A PLATE GLASS as I approach the window and the DOOR OF A CAR SLAMMED.
10:24PM WHILE BRUSHING MY TEETH A THOUGHT FLASHBACK ABOUT SOME BITCH SAYING TWO YEARS THEN A "THREAT" TRANSLATION THAT IT COULD MEAN HOW LONG BEFORE THESE NIGGERS WOULD FINALLY LEAVE ME ALONE. When I said to myself "I DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT" THE TIGHTENING ON MY CHEST STARTED AGAIN THEN STOPPED, BUT STARTED AGAIN INCREASING IN PAIN AS A MOTORCYCLE NOISILY CAME INTO THE PARKING AREA JUST BELOW ME.
10:37PM AS I TRIED TO CORRECT THE SCHEDULE ON MY BLOG, THE SCREEN WOULD NOT RESPOND AND INSTEAD TICKED 2 BOXES ON THE SCREEN THAT WOULD NOT GO AWAY.
10:47PM THOUGHT SUDDENLY CAME ACCUSING ME OF WRITING ALMOST EVERY DETAIL OF WHAT THEY'RE ALL DOING, AND THREATENED ME (WITH A DULL PAIN TO THE BACK OF MY HEAD) THIS WOULD "FORCE" THEM TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC TO FORCE ME TO "OBEY" OR "TRUST" THEM.
10:53PM When I said "ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO TELL ME" QUIETLY, A GROUP OF FAGS CACKLED NEARBY, AND MY NOSE ITCHED AND SNEEZED UNCONTROLLABLY.
As I continued to SNEEZE, A KID STARTED SHOUTING-TAUNTING.
11:18PM ANOTHER THOUGHT "EVEN IF WE GIVE HER WHAT SHE WANTS SHE STILL WON'T COOPERATE ANYWAYS" OVER AND OVER AGAIN. A DH KID SHRIEKS AGAIN.
11:33PM MY EARS GETTING VERY ITCHY. NOSE VERY CLOGGED AND GETTING THOUGHTS THAT IT SHOULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED THIS WAY AND OTHER SELF PITY IDEAS WITH TIGHTENING ON THE CHEST. I COULD NOT GET TO SLEEP AT ALL. ALSO IDEAS THAT I WOULD GET BACK TO WORK AGAIN, AND THAT SOME COMPANY WOULD CALL ME TODAY (BUT NEVER DID).
11:44PM MY EYES STARTED TO ITCH AND AS I SCRATCHED THEM AN IDEA "YOU'LL SEE". I SAID QUIETLY "GO TO HELL" AND A BITCH SOMEWHERE UPSTAIRS CACKLED.
8:55AM AS I SAT NEAR OUR WINDOW TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO, AND NOT FEELING TOO GOOD and a BOMBARDMENT OF QUESTIONS IN MY HEAD, A DH PASSED BY BELOW CACKLING. I felt pissed for some reason.
**** I keep getting the message "A SECURE CONNECTION COULD NOT BE ESTABLISHED" on my mobile. RIGHT AFTER I WROTE THIS, A DH NEXT DOOR SAID "IT'S YOUR FAULT." THEN PRETENDED TO SUSH A KID BEFORE GOING IN.
9:23AM MORE LOUD TALK JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW WITH PHRASES LIKE "LAST NIGHT", "BATANGAS" AND "ARRIVED EARLY", ETC.
9:41AM HAVING A LOT OF CONFUSING AND NAGGING THOUGHTS AGAIN ABOUT WORKING AT A NON-GOVERNMENT ORGANIZATION AS A VOLUNTEER. There are THREATENING THOUGHTS and doubts THAT WHAT HAPPENED BEFORE IS HAPPENING AGAIN (how I got forced out of my job before), THAT I CANNOT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT, THAT MOST COMPANIES WANT ME OUT OF HERE AND WOULD ONLY HIRE ME TO TRAFFICK ME TO OTHER MEN, AND THAT EVERYTHING IS JUST GOING TO BE THE SAME.
Now I'm getting thoughts that if IT WOULD BE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO GET A JOB IF I CONTINUE TO HAVE THESE THOUGHTS, OR I WILL JUST BE SENT BACK TO THE MENTAL HOSPITAL.
10AM SOMEONE STARTED TO CLUCK HIS/HER TONGUE JUST OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW.
10:25AM ANOTHER NAGGING THOUGHT NOW IS THAT I WAS NOT REALLY TERMINATED (YET) AND THEY'RE JUST TRYING TO MAKE ME ASK FOR HELP FROM CERTAIN COLLEAGUES TO TESTIFY OR DEFEND ME, SO AS TO BUILD MY TRUST IN THEM.
INSPITE OF THE FACT THAT I KEPT GETTING NEGATIVE TWITCHES ON MY LEFT LEG AND UNSTOPPABLE PAINFUL YAWNS WHEN I WAS STILL WITH THESE COLLEAGUES.
10:45AM I FEEL SLIGHTLY PISSED WHEN I SEE BLACK PEOPLE OR AFRICANS ON TV.
11:07AM I AM NOW GETTING THOUGHTS THAT IT'S UP TO ME.
*** I HAVE NO GODDAM IDEA WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT.
11:17AM WHILE WATCHING TV, A TAGLINE CAME UP "IT'LL JUST BE FLOATING". THERE WAS A TAP ABOVE THAT FOLLOWED, and I started FEELING PISSED, HEAVY OR DOWN HEARTED AGAIN.
11:43AM A CLICKING SOUND CAN BE HEARD JUST OUTSIDE OUR WINDOW. A thought came to mind that THE NIGGERS WANT ANOTHER SHOWDOWN perhaps, TO FORCE ME TO RUN AFTER OR COOPERATE TO RUN AFTER OR LOOK FOR SOME GODDAM NIGGER DH.
1:52PM AS SOON AS I FINISHED WASHING MY CLOTHES, A LOUD MOUTH PROVINCIAL SOUNDING BITCH STARTED TO SCOLD A SHRIEKING KID.
**** While doing my laundry, STARTED TO HAVE THOUGHTS THAT THE NIGGERS SURROUNDING ME AT HOME MADE A DEAL WITH THE NIGGER SECURITY GUARDS AND OTHERS AT THE OFFICE TO FORCE ME OUT OF MY JOB. Then another flashback on what I saw "WE DO (or make) WHAT YOU IMAGINE" at the back of a car, WITH A CORRESPONDING ANGRY THOUGHT AS TO WHY THEY COULD NOT DO TO THE NIGGERS WHAT I IMAGINED ABOUT NOT HARASSING ME ANYMORE (AND SCREWING MY JOB AGAIN).
2PM A GROUP STARTS GLEEFUL CHATTER followed by a low toned BITCH STARTS TALKING ALOUD "TH EY'RE STILL HERE.. AT THE THEATRE."
3:58PM AS I PLACED SOME ITEMS (which I remember having already put away) NEAR THE WINDOW, A GREY CAR ARRIVED AT THE PARKING AREA BELOW. SOMEONE STARTED
OPENING AND CLOSING THE CAR DOOR LOUDLY SEVERAL TIMES AS I WROTE THIS.
4:54PM AS I SURFED THE NET ABOUT VOLUNTEER JOBS, DHS AT THE BASKETBALL AREA START HOOTING. When I went to check on a certain word from an online dictionary
A WORD "FALLIBLE" OPENED UP ON THE SCREEN.
5:10PM AS I GOT TO PAGE ONLINE and saw a wedding picture of A FOREIGN DH AND A BITCH, I FELT A SHARP PAIN ON MY CHEST (INDUCED BY THE NIGGER RADAR DEVICE AGAIN). A BITCH FROM OUTSIDE THE WINDOW SHOUTED A NAME SIMILAR TO MINE.
8:57PM RANDOM ERRATIC THOUGHTS START AGAIN IN MY HEAD ABOUT SOME FACELESS GUY AND ACCUSATIONS ON MY PERSONALITY AND SUPPOSED WEAKNESSES, FOLLOWED BY A TIGHTENING PAINFUL FEELING ON MY CHEST, AS IF FORCING ME TO CRY FOR NO GODDAM REASON.
9:46PM AN OLD BITCH COUGHED NEARBY AND I ALSO FELT AN ITCH IN MY THROAT MAKING ME COUGH.
10:07PM A BABY STARTS CRYING AND A FEW SECONDS LATER I FEEL SAME TIGHTENING ON MY CHEST. AS I WRITE THIS A KID SAID NEARBY "PAPA" IN A PLEADING MANNER. A SCREAMING WAILING CAT FOLLOWS SUIT. I then HEAR THE CONSTANT RAPID TAPPING AND CLINKING OF A PLATE GLASS as I approach the window and the DOOR OF A CAR SLAMMED.
10:24PM WHILE BRUSHING MY TEETH A THOUGHT FLASHBACK ABOUT SOME BITCH SAYING TWO YEARS THEN A "THREAT" TRANSLATION THAT IT COULD MEAN HOW LONG BEFORE THESE NIGGERS WOULD FINALLY LEAVE ME ALONE. When I said to myself "I DO NOT KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT" THE TIGHTENING ON MY CHEST STARTED AGAIN THEN STOPPED, BUT STARTED AGAIN INCREASING IN PAIN AS A MOTORCYCLE NOISILY CAME INTO THE PARKING AREA JUST BELOW ME.
10:37PM AS I TRIED TO CORRECT THE SCHEDULE ON MY BLOG, THE SCREEN WOULD NOT RESPOND AND INSTEAD TICKED 2 BOXES ON THE SCREEN THAT WOULD NOT GO AWAY.
10:47PM THOUGHT SUDDENLY CAME ACCUSING ME OF WRITING ALMOST EVERY DETAIL OF WHAT THEY'RE ALL DOING, AND THREATENED ME (WITH A DULL PAIN TO THE BACK OF MY HEAD) THIS WOULD "FORCE" THEM TO DO SOMETHING DRASTIC TO FORCE ME TO "OBEY" OR "TRUST" THEM.
10:53PM When I said "ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO TELL ME" QUIETLY, A GROUP OF FAGS CACKLED NEARBY, AND MY NOSE ITCHED AND SNEEZED UNCONTROLLABLY.
As I continued to SNEEZE, A KID STARTED SHOUTING-TAUNTING.
11:18PM ANOTHER THOUGHT "EVEN IF WE GIVE HER WHAT SHE WANTS SHE STILL WON'T COOPERATE ANYWAYS" OVER AND OVER AGAIN. A DH KID SHRIEKS AGAIN.
11:33PM MY EARS GETTING VERY ITCHY. NOSE VERY CLOGGED AND GETTING THOUGHTS THAT IT SHOULD NOT HAVE HAPPENED THIS WAY AND OTHER SELF PITY IDEAS WITH TIGHTENING ON THE CHEST. I COULD NOT GET TO SLEEP AT ALL. ALSO IDEAS THAT I WOULD GET BACK TO WORK AGAIN, AND THAT SOME COMPANY WOULD CALL ME TODAY (BUT NEVER DID).
11:44PM MY EYES STARTED TO ITCH AND AS I SCRATCHED THEM AN IDEA "YOU'LL SEE". I SAID QUIETLY "GO TO HELL" AND A BITCH SOMEWHERE UPSTAIRS CACKLED.
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