The Oppression Diaries

11:30AM   Got a word for the day from an online dictionary "vertiginous".

9:23AM   DH CATCALLS DRAMATICALLY AT THE BASKETBALL AREA. 10:25AM   DHS HOOT AGAIN AS I (involuntarily) SAY TO MYSELF "HE THOUGHT THE COMPANY WOULD REALLY HIRE HIM". 11:41AM   AGGRESSIVE BABBLING BY A KID COMING DOWN THE STAIRS NEAR OUR WINDOW, as I surf the net re harassment. 12:13PM   NEXT DOOR STARTS TO FRY FISH. ****  A MUSIC APP STOPPED AT THE TITLE "FEAR" AND THEN "ALWAYS ENOUGH" earlier. 1:15PM   A DH SOMEWHERE BELOW STARTED HOOTING AS I APPROACHED THE TV (SHOWING IRON MAN 3). 5:30PM   I START FEELING HEAVY PAINFUL PALPITATIONS FOR NO REASON AT ALL (UPON MY SISTER'S ARRIVAL).  SHE SAID SOMETHING LIKE "MAYBE YOU SHOULD GO BACK TO WORK NOW" after I started talking about my mother's inability to listen attentively or even to think straight anymore (quite exasperating). 7:54PM   WATCHING TV.  WHEN GOT TO TAGLINE "YOU'LL DO FINE" LEFT LEG TWITCHED.

3:15PM   DHS STARTING COMMOTION (CATCALLS, HOOTING).  A DH EVEN CALLED OUT "MOTHER". 4:28PM   DH IN DARK BLUE BLOCKING MY WAY WITH BITCHES FOLLOWING OR COMING FROM THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION SAYING OR GIGGLING "YES, YES THAT'S RIGHT".  Happened corner of Comic Alley shop inside the mall. A DH IN TANGERINE SHOUTED ALOUD AS HE PASSED BEHIND ME (AS IF TO JOLT or SHOCK ME) as I looked on my tablet recording. FAG SHOUT AND SING "YOU'RE JUST GOING TO KEEP ASKING QUESTIONS (ALL YOU'RE LEFT WITH ARE QUESTIONS)."  A DH PASSED BY AGAIN SAYING "I'M JUST RIGHT HERE. JUST HURRY UP". 5:16PM   As I sat down at the food court to kill time, A LOCAL BITCH AND A FOREIGNER STARTED TALKING ALOUD "SHE'S REALLY GOOD.  NO WONDER SHE'S BLESSED.  THE ELDEST SISTER".  THE FOREIGNER (OLD DH) THEN PROCEEDED TO SAY "WHAT HAS HE DONE FOR HER FAMILY ANYWAYS". 6PM   AS I ARRIVED AT THE OFFICE FOR THE NEXT HEARING AND APPROACHED T...

9:14PM   KIDS GROWLING ALOUD AND MAKING MONSTER SOUNDS. 12:42AM   STARTED TO FEEL VERY PISSED ABOUT MY MOTHER'S BULL HEADEDNESS.  FEELING AND ANGRY THOUGHTS WON'T GO AWAY FOR SOME REASON. 12:28AM   KEEP GETTING TWITCHES ON MY LEFT LEG OR SIDES WHEN I SAY TO MYSLEF THAT I WOULD BE REPORTING BACK TO WORK (OR WILL KEEP MY JOB), AND OF MY MOST RECENT PLAN TO RENT A PLACE OF MY OWN. Starting to FEEL BAD ON MY CHEST (CONSTRICTING PAIN) AS I WRITE THIS DOWN. ****  I HAVE REASON TO BELIEVE THIS FUCKED UP NIGGER'S ELECTROMAGNETIC DEVICE IS THE ONE THAT CAUSED MY MOTHER TO SCALD HER ARM AND HAND WITH BOILING WATER.  JUST TO SCREW MY PEACE OF MIND FURTHER DURING MY JOB SUSPENSION.  That's the kind of SADISTS THESE NIGGERS ARE. 2:29PM   Started to feel sleepy and drowsy.  When I prepared to take a nap A DH STARTED TO SING MOCKINGLY DOWNSTAIRS.  A KID SHOUTED CATCALLS NEAR OUR WINDOW OUTSIDE AS I PASSED BY IT. 3PM   While sleeping, I...

6AM   AWAKENED BY A DH MAKING LOUD GROWLING SOUNDS OVER AND OVER AGAIN SOMEWHERE DOWNSTAIRS. 11AM   HAD AN ARGUMENT WITH MY MOTHER (accusing me of giving me wrong info).  A KID NEAR OUR WINDOW OUTSIDE STARTED CATCALLING.

12:22AM   KIDS SHOUTING AND TALKING ALOUD IN THE HALLWAYS. 11AM   A GROUP ON THE PASSENGER JEEP STARTED TALKING ABOUT THE "PASSWORD".  After the middle aged hailed the driver to stop (where I was also getting off) she said aloud to the kid with her "YOU COULD HAVE MISSED YOUR STOP IF IT WERE NOT FOR ME". 11:30PM   RANDOM LOUD TALK AND SHOUTING STARTED FOLLOWED BY A BITCH DEMANDING ALOUD "YOU JUST WAIT THERE" TO A GUY JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW OUTSIDE.

11:05PM   A DH OR FAG STARTED SHOUTING OR WHINING ALOUD AS I LAY DOWN PREPARING TO SLEEP.

12:17AM   COULD NOT GET TO SLEEP.   GETTING A LOT OF ITCH ON MY FACE (INCLUDING ALLERGIES) DUE TO UNNATURAL PALPITATIONS.  LOUD FIRECRACKERS EXPLODING OUTSIDE TOO. 6AM   SUDDENLY WOKE UP WITH A VERY ITCHY NOSE AND THROAT. 2:11PM   KIDS STANDING JUST ABOVE MY WINDOW (IN A VERANDA) SAYING ALOUD "LUNATIC" REPEATEDLY. 3:30PM   DHS AT THE BASKETBALL AREA START CATCALLS AND HOOTING DRAMATICALLY. 4:50PM   SOMEONE KEPT OPENING AND CLOSING A DOOR NEARBY OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL I STARTED TO FEEL SOMETHING IRRITATING MY LEFT EAR (LIKE AIR BEING SUCKED IN AND OUT).  I also started to FEEL IRRITATED.  The BASKETBALL DHS CONTINUED SHOUTING CATCALLS AND CLAPPING HANDS. 8:30PM   STARTED TO CHOKE ON FOOD FOR NO REASON.  MY MOUTH AND THROAT FELT STIFF.

1:49PM   As I started to prepare my lunch, scooping out of a bowl, A DH NOISILY DRIBBLING AND SLAMMING A BALL AT THE BASKETBALL AREA HOOTS.  I FELT IRATE IMMEDIATELY. My mother also starts getting OVERLY IRRITATED ABOUT OUR VERY CLOGGED TOILET (AGAIN).  My mother's irritation might be caused by THIS GODDAM NIGGERS' ELECTROMAGNETIC DEVICE AGAIN, AS IT ALWAYS DOES MINE. When I started to turn the TV off, STARTING TO FEEL IRATE MYSELF with my mother or something, MY LEFT LEG TWITCHED. I also keep getting a message online "A SECURE CONNECTION COULD NOT BE ESTABLISHED", IN ADDITION TO MY GOOGLE APP HAVING SO MUCH PROBLEM UPLOADING PHOTOS FROM MY TABLET.  As a result I could not post a pic on my blog.  This has been going on since morning. 2:31PM   Some kids somewhere nearby started MAKING or SHOUTING MONSTER NOISES. 3:52PM   Feeling cold and stiff or disoriented (or downhearted) or disappointed FOR SOME UNKNOWN REASON.

7:50AM   GETTING TWITCHES on my legs GIVING ME THE IMPRESSION I WILL NOT BE GOING BACK TO WORK anymore (OR WILL GET TERMINATED FROM WORK). A babbling kid passed by as I started saying my thoughts aloud. When I passed by the window (to get something) A DARK BROWN CAR WAS PARKED DIRECTLY OUTSIDE WITH HAZARD LIGHTS, AS A BITCH IN LIME GREEN GOT IN. ****   I HAD BEEN SEEING A SMALL LIME GREEN SCOOTER PARKED VISIBLY OUTSIDE THE WINDOW FOR A COUPLE OF NIGHTS NOW.  If these niggers think they could force me again to RIDE THEIR GODDAM STRANGERS' CARS BY TERMINATING ME FROM MY JOB, THEY CAN GO TO HELL WITH THEIR THINKING. A DH STARTED DRIBBLING A BALL JUST BELOW MY WINDOW OUTSIDE THEN SLAMMING IT ALOUD AGAINST THE WOODEN PANEL. 8:21AM   DHS NOW START SHOUTING SOMETHING ALOUD LIKE "GO DOWN" or "NONE" AS THEY SLAMMED THE WOODEN PANEL OVER AND OVER. 8:54AM   FEELING COLD (and somewhat UNSURE) SINCE THIS MORNING as to what I have to say or tell or account for my ...

2:30PM   FEELING VERY DIZZY AS DHS AT THE BASKETBALL AREA and AT THE PARKING AREA MAKE A LOT OF NOISE 3:35PM   AS I APPROACHED NEAR THE WINDOW, A DH HOLLERED AT THE PARKING AREA BELOW.  I STARTED TO FEEL PISSED.  SO I SHOUTED OUT THE WINDOW.  A PAINFUL SENSATION STARTED ON MY RIGHT NECK LEADING TO MY SHOULDER. 4:30PM   A DH HOLLERED AGAIN JUST AS I GOT OUT THE BATHROOM (TO SURPRISE ME AND TO PISS ME OFF). 4:46PM   AS I WROTE THIS DOWN MUSIC STARTED TO PLAY ALOUD SOMEWHERE DOWNSTAIRS.  I FELT PISSED AGAIN AND A SLIGHT SENSATION UP MY ASS. 4:49PM   A DH HOLLERED AGAIN THIS TIME JUST BELOW MY WINDOW OUTSIDE. ****   Someone on a motorbike left.  NOISY STEEL DRILLING CAN ALSO BE HEARD. 9PM   SHARP PAIN GOING DOWN THE RIGHT SHOULDER TO RIGHT SIDE OF MY NECK AND SIDE OF CHEST. 11PM   CAN NOT SEEM TO BURP BUT FEELING GAS IN MY STOMACH.

12:28AM   A GROUP GUFFAWED NEARBY AS I MOUTHED OUT "THEY'RE JUST REALLY OUT TO ANTAGONIZE YOU". 12:46AM   GROUP CONTINUES TO CACKLE after I had some snack. 1AM   When I was about to shut my eyes and doze off, THE NIGGER GANG CACKLED ALOUD AGAIN. 1:22AM   FEELING VERY SLEEPY BUT COULD NOT GET ANY SLEEP AT ALL.  SOME SPORADIC LOUD CHATTER AND SHOUTING CAN STILL BE HEARD. 1:27AM   DHS CACKLED IN UNISON JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW AS I STARTED TO DOZE OFF.  FELT A SLIGHT JOLTING SENSATION.  A BITCH CACKLED AND HOOTED AS I WROTE THIS. 1:36AM   GROUP OF OLD SOUNDING BITCHES and LOUD MOUTH FAGS CONTINUED TO GUFFAW AS I SELF-TALKED "THEY'RE GOING TO GET SCREWED..." ETC.

10:40PM   SHOUTING AND LOUD CHATTER BY BITCHES AND FAGS FOLLOWED BY DHS TALKNG ABOUT "RISK FACTOR". 11:52PM   A GROUP OF FAGS GUFFAW AS I MOUTH OUT "YOU'RE GOING BACK TO WORK" AND "YOU'RE GETTING MARRIED SOME TIME SOON".

3PM   FEELING SUCH PAINFUL TIGHTNESS ON MY CHEST.  I COULD BARELY THINK OF ANYTHING AS WELL, AND SEEMINGLY FEELING A STRONG DISTATE FOR FOOD AND ANYTHING ELSE THAT I SEE.  This was immediately after I finished writing a defense against one other complaint and/or accusation against me. A BITCH SNICKERED ALOUD OUTSIDE JUST BELOW THE WINDOW as I wrote this.

11AM   Extreme pain on my lower abdomen (spasms).  A NOISY DRILL HAD ALSO STARTED.

8:50AM   TIGHTENING OF CHEST AND UNUSUALLY COLD FEELING HAS STARTED AGAIN (what niggers call as panick attack). 12:26PM   PANICK ATTACK FEELING CONTINUES ON (GOES ON AND OFF) FOR NO REASON. ****  SAME GODDAM ERRATIC FEELINGS (STARTED 14 YEARS AGO) THAT "FORCED" ME TO RUN AFTER ANY GODDAM STRANGERS' VEHICLES, CAUSED ME TO GET INSTITUTIONALIZED, AND WHICH ALSO GOT ME RAPED AND VIOLATED IN THE FIRST PLACE. 12:45PM   FEELING VERY WEAK AND TIRED (WITH ANGRY THOUGHTS ABOUT A GODDAM FAG SENIOR SUPERVISOR who looks like an oriental and was part of the "interrogation" admin meeting). 1:30PM   PANICK ATTACK CONTINUES.  I feel dizzy and could not get up out of my bed. 2:10PM   Saw a red car parked next to a motorbike outside the window.  A thought started to "interpret" what it meant, seemingly WITH AN ACCOMPANYING IRRITATING FEELING RISING UP FROM BOTH SIDES OF MY NECK. ****  I have no idea if these FEELINGS ARE TRYING TO COME ACROSS ...

1AM   FAG MOCK-LAUGH OVER AND OVER AGAIN NEARBY UNTIL I WOKE UP.  JOLTING SENSATION ACCOMPANIED EACH SOUND. DHS ARRIVED AT THE HALLWAY OUTSIDE THE DOOR TALKING ALOUD. 1:30AM   LOUD VIBRATING NOISE CAN BE HEARD OUTSIDE THE DOOR AND WINDOW. 3:21AM   Awakened by DHS who STARTED TALKING ALOUD NEAR OUR WINDOW.  ONE SAID "THICK SKINNED... NOT A FEMALE".  WAS ABOUT TO CONTINUE TALKING WHEN I TURNED MY RECORDER ON. 12:11PM   As I bit into a sandwich, I FELT A STAB OF DULL PAIN OR DISCOMFORT ON MY CHEST.  THEN A DH OUTSIDE JUST BELOW MY WINDOW COUGHED. ****  A continuous loud droning noise continues just outside our window and somewhere below.  Meanwhile, CERTAIN THOUGHTS ENTER MY HEAD WITH CORRESPONDING EXTREMELY IRRITATING SENSATION ON MY CHEST.  The feeling stopped momentarily as I wrote this. 3:36PM   DHS STARTED SHOUTING, WITH ONE ON A MIKE, AT THE BASKETBALL COURT.  THE SHOUTS SEEM TO BE GROWING LOUDER.

8:10AM   (At home) STARTING TO FEEL SICK AGAIN.  I just opened an email re a follow up doc relating to one of the complaints against me. ****  ALL THIS FUCKED UP DEVICE DOES IS SCREW MY FEELINGS NOWADAYS AND MY APPETITE.  IT WANTS TO MAKE ME FEEL AS IF IT'S THE END OF THE WORLD.  It's most likely the same one THAT MAKES ME RANT AND RAVE, AND GO ON A RAGE whenever I am getting HARASSED BY THESE NIGGERS.  But inspite of that, THE NIGGERS STILL DO NOT STOP. 8:30AM   AS I WROTE THIS BLOG, SOME PROVOCATIVE BACKGROUND LOW TONED MUSIC STARTED TO PLAY OUTSIDE, SOMEWHERE BELOW MY ROOM.  A BALL ALSO STARTS GETTING SLAMMED AGAINST A WALL. SOME PAIN ON MY CHEST HAD ALSO STARTED TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD LIKE SOME KIND OF CONSTRICTION OR TIGHTENING with SORENESS OR MINTY SENSATION.  IT FELT LIKE I MISSED SOMETHING OR WAS ABOUT TO. I started to play my recording to DROWN OUT THE SUBTLE NOISE HARASSMENT AND PROPAGANDA AGAIN BY THE NIGGERS AROUND ME. ...

7:34AM   I suddenly woke up due to the noise of TWO LOUD TALKING DHS AND A MOTORBIK.  A few minutes later, I STARTED HAVING PALPITATIONS. 11:55AM   PALPITATIONS STARTING AGAIN and FELT LIKE SOME KIND OF PANIC ATTACK FEELING FOR NO REASON. 12:15PM   WHILE TALKING TO MYSELF OR EVALUATING THE PROVISIONS OF A GOOD DEAL, A BIG KID SOMEWHERE DOWNSTAIRS STARTS HOOTING. Someone also starts dragging and/or slamming a plastic stool on the cement floor downstairs. ***  Just an afterthought re yesterday's conversation, what is the main reason for security guards to be around or their services to be required if not other than, among other things but mostly, to keep the peace?  I mean if their main reason is just to observe and report what they claim to hear, notwithstanding their own personal biases and prejudices, won't CCTV's do a better job?

9:25AM   STARTING TO FEEL TIGHT ON THE CHEST AGAIN AND UNUSUALLY COLD. ****  FEELING IS SIMILAR TO APPREHENSION.  I don't know which is worse, confronting the issue or GETTING TORTURED TO SILENCE EVERY GODDAM DAY. 10:33AM   FEELING SICK AND WEAK (with FEELINGS OF APPREHENSION for some UNEXPLAINABLE REASON). 10:57AM  FEELING HUNGRY BUT I COULD NOT GET MYSELF TO PREPARE FOOD.  I FEEL SO CONFUSED, DIZZY AND IRRITATED ONCE I START TO PREPARE FOOD, with STRONG FEELINGS OF AVERSION.  HAVING BREATHLESSNESS TOO. ****   As I wrote this SOMETHING IN MY CHEST SUDDENLY DROPPED.  The TIGHT-CHEST SENSATION SLIGHTLY DISAPPEARED. 5PM   ARRIVING JUST OUTSIDE THE MALL (to pay my bills) BITCH IN PINK WITH FAT MIDGET BASTARD HAD "CONFIDENCE"  PRINTED AT THE BACK OF HER SHIRT.  I STARTED TO EXPLODE UNCONTROLLABLY. BITCHES PASSING BACK AND FORTH TALKING ALOUD "SO YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO CHOOSE FROM".  MORE BITCHES PASSING BY TALKING A...

2AM   (approx) SUDDENLY AWAKENED BY THE GUFFAWS AND LOUD CACKLING OF SOME BITCHES AND THE FAG.  But was too drowsy so fell right back to sleep. Im not sure if what transpired was hours or minutes but THE FAG SAME CACKLED AND LET OUT A LOUD SHRILL LAUGHTER AWAKENING ME.  SO IT WENT ON LIKE THAT A COUPLE OF TIMES (PROBABLY 5 TIMES) THAT I WOULD GO IN AND OUT OF SLEEP AS THE FAG AND HIS GANG OF BITCHES DISRUPTED MY SLEEP. EACH TIME I AWAKENED, I WOULD MOUTH OUT "NO DEAL FOREVER" and "SERVES YOU ALL RIGHT", TO WHICH THE FAG WOULD CACKLE BACK IN REPLY meaning "not true". 10:40AM   VERY PAINFUL CHEST CONSTRICTING SENSATION SEEMS TO BE STARTING AGAIN.  DON'T HAVE MUCH APPETITE. 11:59PM   (At the mall) MY APP WON'T WORK.  CANT SEND MY RESPONSE DOCS TO COMPLAINTS AGAINST ME TO MY EMAIL FOR PRINTING. 4PM   APPLICATION ON AN ONLINE CAFE STOPPED WORKING AS I TRIED TO DOWNLOAD MY RESPONSE LETTER FOR PRINTING. ***  Earlier, AS SOON AS I GOT IN ...

8:50AM   WOKE UP AND SUDDENLY A BAD FEELING STARTED  MY FEET STARTED TO FEEL CILD AS WELL EVEN WITH A BLANKET ON. 10AM  STARTING TO FEEL COLD AGAIN AND IRRITATING NERVOUSNESS WHILE WATCHING TV. 10:27AM   FEELING NERVOUS AGAIN AS I CONTINUE TO WATCH. 11:41AM   BITCH (SOUNDING LIKE AN IRRITATED UNCOUTH STREET VENDOR) STARTS GRIPING ALOUD WITH HER UNFORTUNATE WARD AGAIN JUST OUTSIDE OUR DOOR. ****  ALSO WHILE I WAS WRITING "POTENTIAL SEXUAL HARASSMENT INCIDENT OR BULLYING" ON MY COUNTER RESPONSE, THE NIGGER TWITCHER STARTED TWEAKING MY LEFT LEG VEHEMENTLY. 12PM   SIMILAR SOUNDING BITCH HAD JUST PASSED NEAR OUR WINDOW TAUNTING "IT'S THERE (IT'S ABOUT TO HAPPEN) with A LOUD LOW VOICE.  I FEEL PALPITATIONS AGAIN (FOR NO REASON). 1:40PM   SOME DHS PASSED NEAR OUR WINDOW SAYING "JUST TALK... YOU STILL HAD TO POKE". JUST THEN MY TABLET APPLICATION IMMEDIATELY STOPPED, LOSING SOME UNSAVED INFO. **** AS I CONTINUE WRITING A COUNTER COMPL...

1:53PM   SHARP PAIN AND INCREASING ON MY RIGHT SHOULDER.  STARTING TO FEEL COLD TOO. 6PM  BITCHES STARTED CHATTERING ALOUD IN THE HALLWAY NEXT DOOR. MAKING LOUD REMARKS LIKE "IT'S FOR YOU", "SO UGLY EVEN" or "MAYBE PUT SOME MAKE UP", ETC.  Started to FEEL PISSED AS I IGNORED THEM. **** Backtracking, this morning, I COULD NOT SEEM TO CONTINUE WRITING MY RESPONSE TO THE COMPLAINTS AGAINST ME.  I FELT COLD OR CHILLY WITH CONSTANT PALPITATIONS.  I also felt RESTLESS (WITH PANICK-LIKE FEELINGS), COULD NOT FOCUS, and seemed to be LOSING APPETITE.  I COULD NOT FEEL MUCH EXCEPT A GENERAL DISLIKE TO WRITING ANYTHING. There seems to be a CONSTANT DULL PAIN ON MY CHEST ON TOP OF THE FLUCTUATING SENSATIONS MENTIONED. I only got to start writing at around 4PM. 9PM   (approx)  THE REMOTE TO OUR TV WOULD STOP RESPONDING ON AND OFF.  THEN I WOULD HEAR A CAR ARRIVING, OR AN ENGINE LEFT RUNNING JUST BELOW OUR WINDOW. 11PM   AS I TURNED OFF ...

12:44AM    COULD NOT SEEM TO GET ANY SLEEP, AND WRACKED BY PAINFUL COUGHS. 1:51AM   STILL COULD NOT SLEEP, with thoughts still running through my head, AND STARTING TO HAVE SOME FORM OF ITCHY SKIN ALLERGY.  My left arm and hand had also STARTED TO DEVELOP A VERY PAINFUL CRAMP (for no apparent reason). 2:40AM   STILL CAN'T SLEEP EVEN AFTER EATING A LIGHT MEAL.  NOW GETTING SO MANY ACCUSING THOUGHTS IN MY HEAD. 3:37AM   Was abour to doze off, WHEN A DH PASSED BY OUTSIDE THE DOOR TALKING OUT LOUD AND KNOCKING NOISILY AT A DOOR WHILE SHOUTING. ****  MORE SLEEP DISRUPTIONS OCCURED 3-5 TIMES PUTTING ME IN A HALF AWAKE, HALF ASLEEP STATE.  One bitch I recall was scolding someone like a kid "TO GO DOWN NOW." 8:50AM   A bitch passed through the hallway again doing child-talk.  A few minutes later, another started humming aloud.  I FELT SOMETHING HEAVY AND UNCOMFORTABLE IN MY CHEST. 12:21PM   PAIN ON MY CHEST AND CO...

9:15AM   Every time I tell myself that I would have to answer the written formal complaints against me, MY LEFT LEG GETS TWITCHED. 9:50AM   When I started telling myself (in the privacy of my room) that the AMERICAN NIGGERS ARE DEAD, SOME OLD-SOUNDING BITCHES IMMEDIATELY STARTED LAUGHING HILARIOUSLY at the lobby nearby. 12PM   When I started to get some water to drink THIS FUCKED UP TWITCHER MADE MY LEFT LEG TWITCH.  Same FUCKING TWITCH ON MY LEFT LEG WHEN I INFORMED the residential admin to TONE DOWN THE MUSIC at the activity downstairs.

12AM   COULD NOT SEEM TO GET ANY SLEEP.  THOUGHTS COMING INTO MY HEAD RAPIDLY. 12:35AM   FAG NIGGERS STARTED MOCK LAUGHING NEARBY 8:10AM   While sitting down, after just waking up, I STARTED TO FEEL VERY IRRITABLE AND JUMPY DUE TO VERY HEAVY PALPITATIONS.  I FELT ANGRY WHEN MY MOTHER SUDDENLY SPOKE TO ME. THERE WERE ALSO SOME DHS IN THE BASKETBALL AREA WHO WERE STARTING TO MAKE NOISES (SLAM DUNKING THE BALL over and over).  WHEN I STARTED TO WRITE THIS THEY PROCEEDED TO SHOUTING OR HOOTING. 1:40PM   I FELT A BIT WEAK SO I LAYED DOWN AND MY HEAD STARTED TO HAVE PAINFUL BLURRY (and vague) FLASHING PICTURES again.  I STARTED CURSING AND SHOUTING AND MY HEAD SEEMINGLY CLEARED. ****  TOILET IS OVERLY CLOGGED AGAIN.

9PM   WHEN I TRIED TO SAVE MY WRITING (in response to the allegations against me) MY TABLET APP SUDDENLY SHUT DOWN.  I started to feel so pissed and shouting.  A DH somewhere downstairs STARTED SHOUTING BACK joined by bitches (old sounding and provincial) STARTED LAUGHING HILARIOUSLY, provoking me further into a RAGE.  The old sounding bitch continued laughing and shouted "IT'S NOT US", then "(THEY SAID) TO TAKE A BATH NOW." 12:54PM   As soon as I sat at my workstation, a DH BEHIND SAID SOMETHING ALOUD AND I RETORTED BY SAYING "NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR YOUR OPINION".  This was eventually followed by the FAT DH with his USUAL QUESTION, ANSWER AND COMMENTS SESSION but more limited this time. 4PM   At the pantry, while waiting at the line to get my lunch order, BLACK FOREIGNER came and stood next to me.  The old looking bitch canteen staff immediately appeared with a wide smile.  Then the two started a loud verbal exchange using "chicken" as the...

12:40AM   COULD NOT SLEEP DUE TO PALPITATIONS and a myriad of thoughts in my head. 2PM   STILL UNABLE TO SLEEP (due to non-stop palpitations) AND STARTING TO FEEL A DULL PAIN ON MY RIGHT TEMPLE AND FOREHEAD. 8:15PM   Just woke up.  Starting to have thoughts about the intention behind the complaint against me which is almost like DEFENDING THE PERSONS RESPONSIBLE.  It seems that this is a ploy to GET ME TO DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT OTHER THAN MY REGULAR JOB EVEN IF IT'S QUITE APPARENT THAT THIS WILL NOT GET ME PROMOTED (and to goddam farfetched to even think that) OR GRANT ME A SALARY RAISE, AND IT'S BEING DONE AGAIN AT MY EXPENSE AND TIME (which I never get paid for my efforts AND THE OFFICE NIGGERS STILL GET SCOT FREE or even get promoted just so they CAN BE TRANSFERRED AWAY FROM ME where I would sooner or later REJOIN THEM, instead of getting TERMINATED PERMANENTLY). IN OTHER WORDS EVERY HARASSING NIGGER SEEMS TO BE GETTING ALL THE PERKS IN RETURN FOR RUIN...